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August 2011

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As usual, it's several months since my last update.

I'm normally on Facebook, but I will try to update more often, if you will read my stuff. AND COMMENT!!!

For now, I'm just going to copy and paste my current DA journal entry, because it's something very serious to me, and i want some advice...

Now remember, this was written almost a month ago, but it's still happening.

Here goes!!!

My mind is melting...

And I'm not sure what to do about it...

The comics I read feel more real to me than the animal shelter I work at...

My daughter will be two in a couple months and I still don't feel like a mom... is that bad of me?

I'm scared. I'm getting so much worse.

The other day, I spent the day in a fog. I felt high, but I haven't smoked in over two years. I've never done anything harder than pot, anyway...

I was walking, but I didn't feel my feet move. I know I was walking because I saw it, but that's it. I didn't know what was going on.

I was told to put away the dishes and fill up litterboxes. I did the first task, and started on the second. Suddenly I stopped. I remembered I had two tasks to do. One was litterboxes, which I was doing. But for the life of me, I couldn't remember the other one. And I had already done it!

I was on the verge of tears all day. I can't deal with this. I felt like I was dreaming. You know, where you're there, but not really, kinda like you're watching tv, but you're in the tv.

Heh, my life is a bad tv show... Great...

*sigh* Thanks for letting me rant. I know no one is going to read this, so it was nice to get it all out without someone saying "go see a doctor." I'm really sick of that advice. If I could afford a doctor or a shrink, believe me, I'd be there.